No parent wants to see there child in any kind of pain, no matter how big or small the pain causing thing is. OK let me back a bit and give you the back story here. My second daughter Abigail Maria Goold was born on March 12, 2016 at just 36weeks and 2days. When I went into labor this early I was for sure she was going to be at least 5lbs and that her lungs weren't going to be developed enough. Oh boy was I wrong she ended up being 6lbs 9oz and 19in and no lung problems yahooooooo! She was fine except for one tiny thing her hips dislocated very easily.
When the doctor first told me this I was like "what the crap no way". He reassured me that this happens and she was ok. The doctor made my fears go away all he wanted us to do is double dipper and go see a Orthopedic therapist. We went and saw the Orthopedic therapist 3 different times and he could still feel her hip dislocate, pop, and click. At the 3rd appointment he informed me that we need to take her to another specialist. At that point I broke down inside, I wondered how I'm gonna deal with this? He informed me that this happens all the time he would like someone else to take a look. Because she is 3 months old her hips should stay in place now, and there not. How is my baby going though this and not me how?
I got in the car and I called up to Primary Children's Hospital, now that is a call I don't ever want to make. I set up appointment for her to get a treatment plan in how to fix her hips. When your child is in any kind of pain all you want to do is take it away for them. I feel so extremely helpless I wish this was happening to me. I know in my heart that all well be OK, but that doesn't take away the fear I have right now of it being something more then just her hip.
I know that the hip is a small thing, but to me it's major, to me I feel helpless. My hope and dreams for my children is that they can do and be anything they want to. My love for my kids has no words it goes beyond this world. With that love i wish I could take away her pain, but I can't. I have faith in our Heavenly Father that this is a small moment in time that I can and well get though. I leave you with my testimony that I KNOW that this church is true. I know that our Father in Heaven is ALWAYS there for us no matter what we are going though. He loves us all.
When the doctor first told me this I was like "what the crap no way". He reassured me that this happens and she was ok. The doctor made my fears go away all he wanted us to do is double dipper and go see a Orthopedic therapist. We went and saw the Orthopedic therapist 3 different times and he could still feel her hip dislocate, pop, and click. At the 3rd appointment he informed me that we need to take her to another specialist. At that point I broke down inside, I wondered how I'm gonna deal with this? He informed me that this happens all the time he would like someone else to take a look. Because she is 3 months old her hips should stay in place now, and there not. How is my baby going though this and not me how?
I got in the car and I called up to Primary Children's Hospital, now that is a call I don't ever want to make. I set up appointment for her to get a treatment plan in how to fix her hips. When your child is in any kind of pain all you want to do is take it away for them. I feel so extremely helpless I wish this was happening to me. I know in my heart that all well be OK, but that doesn't take away the fear I have right now of it being something more then just her hip.
I know that the hip is a small thing, but to me it's major, to me I feel helpless. My hope and dreams for my children is that they can do and be anything they want to. My love for my kids has no words it goes beyond this world. With that love i wish I could take away her pain, but I can't. I have faith in our Heavenly Father that this is a small moment in time that I can and well get though. I leave you with my testimony that I KNOW that this church is true. I know that our Father in Heaven is ALWAYS there for us no matter what we are going though. He loves us all.
Love Ashley
P.s. Here are some of my favorite pictures of abby.
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